Drowning

I can't seem to think of what to say presently.
My mind's a blank and my heart's too heavy.
So much's going on in my head.
Too many voices.

So.
I'm leaving you, my pathetic readers,
with something I read in the past.
Something which describes my exact thoughts and words.
If I could write how I felt right now.
This would be it.
It would be
Perfect.

The beach - Alex Garland

" My last attempt was to dive back into the pool. Underwater always had the quantities of a refuge for me. Calming, blinding, deafening.

A perfect escape.

It worked too. Envolping me in anonymous coolness, but in an unavoidably temporary way. Without gills, I had to keep surfacing, and as soon as I surface,

My mind resumes it's circular debates."